Posts tagged #Emotions

An emotional being

If you know me well then you know I am an emotional being. At times I feel my mind is spinning, a web that goes in 50 directions at the same time.

As I prepare to return to Haiti tomorrow for the first time since I moved away last June, I find the simplest things bring me to tears. I started Cedar and Cypress Designs in part to stay involved in Haiti-if the foundation of your business is based there, then it is pretty imperative to stay involved.

However when you leave a place, you do just that-you leave. I used to get asked why I lived and stayed in Haiti so long. The answer is simple; community, the people. In Haiti I lived out everyday life with an amazing community. But then I left that community and it has been one of the most difficult transitions of my life. Here I am eight months later and still struggling, still hurting, still transitioning.

I cried a little this morning; overjoyed because I get to go home tomorrow, even for just a taste, but I am also mourning. Mourning that some things are different, life is never the same today as it was yesterday. Rarely will you be in a room with the same people again as you were. Treasure every moment, every person, every friendship.

This is not the first time I will return to a place where the relationships and friendships are different. When I left for Haiti six years ago, I left a world and a community that I also loved something fierce. I have navigated life and the differences in those relationships as I will navigate these now. This life I get to live truly is something special and the people with whom have crossed my path today, tomorrow, a year ago, five years ago-you are gems, each and every one of you and you have shined brightly in my life. Thank you for that.

To this gem...I love you friend...

To this gem...I love you friend...

Complications in Communication

I am not the best communicator at times, I am however really great at being super emotional and impulsive. Not an overwhelming awesome combination when you have to be professional as a business owner. When something goes wrong in an aspect of my life, I don't always go about it in the best way. I tend to fly off the handle a little, but its something I have been working on for a long time. 

When stress levels compound my short fuse, it's all a big recipe for disaster. Not to mention sprinkling in some of those general emotions. Learning to control all this is a huge feat for sure. I have to say when things go wrong or get all upside down and complicated I am really glad to know the art of prayer and it puts me at ease to know the impact of prayer. Turning my eyes to the Lord has been essential over the last few years on the mission field in Haiti and that is no different now as I embark on this adventure of owning my own business.

Things don't go the way you expect and there isn't really anything to do but deal with it, or in the words of Carly Fiorina "Figure it out." Apparently that's what great leaders do so if I want to be a good leader in business, my family and other areas of my life, then I better start figuring it out.

Ready. Set. Go.

Cheers to the weekend!!!