If you know me well then you know I am an emotional being. At times I feel my mind is spinning, a web that goes in 50 directions at the same time.
As I prepare to return to Haiti tomorrow for the first time since I moved away last June, I find the simplest things bring me to tears. I started Cedar and Cypress Designs in part to stay involved in Haiti-if the foundation of your business is based there, then it is pretty imperative to stay involved.
However when you leave a place, you do just that-you leave. I used to get asked why I lived and stayed in Haiti so long. The answer is simple; community, the people. In Haiti I lived out everyday life with an amazing community. But then I left that community and it has been one of the most difficult transitions of my life. Here I am eight months later and still struggling, still hurting, still transitioning.
I cried a little this morning; overjoyed because I get to go home tomorrow, even for just a taste, but I am also mourning. Mourning that some things are different, life is never the same today as it was yesterday. Rarely will you be in a room with the same people again as you were. Treasure every moment, every person, every friendship.
This is not the first time I will return to a place where the relationships and friendships are different. When I left for Haiti six years ago, I left a world and a community that I also loved something fierce. I have navigated life and the differences in those relationships as I will navigate these now. This life I get to live truly is something special and the people with whom have crossed my path today, tomorrow, a year ago, five years ago-you are gems, each and every one of you and you have shined brightly in my life. Thank you for that.